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Whoops, It Was A Good Day

Today was the first day of my 3 weeks of outpatient internal medicine. Some people refer to it as Ambulatory Medicine. Maybe that’s because the patients, for the most part, walk in.

I was putting on my shoes on the way to the 7:30 AM orientation session when I noticed a text message on my phone. It was from a classmate. It read, “Where are you?”

It was 7:15. Plenty of time for me to get to the hospital for the orientation. But with the text, I realized my mea culpa. It was a 7:00 AM orientation.

But what can you do? Whoops. So I strolled in to the conference room 30 minutes late and took a seat.

And that was my entrance into Ambulatory Medicine. It was a fitting start to the day. Because for the rest of the day I felt a little bit lost. Ok, fine. I felt a whole lot lost. Whether it was what to do with the patient after I had finished up with them, or where to send them when my attending wanted a STAT X-ray, I was totally in the dark.

A number of times I walked to the friendliest looking nurse and asked what I was supposed to do. What do I do with this chart? This patient is ready to go, do I just send them outside?

I saw a total of three patients today. None of them were terribly complicated patients. Their problems were manageable. But the situation was uncomfortable — for me.

But when it was all said and done, it was nice to have seen the patients. The population at a VA is a unique one. I remember one elderly patient who was in the US Army Airborne back in his day. Served 3 tours of active duty. He also showed me pieces of shrapnel under his skin that were still just coming up to the surface some 30 years after his injuries.

Crazy day. A day that started with a “whoops” and was filled with almost a constant sense of being lost. But it was a good day.

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On the Wards – Thrown to the Wolves

I missed the deadline to submit my preference for where I wanted to do my Family Medicine clerkship. Fortunately, though, my first choice was an away rotation at a hospital near my parents’ house.

On my first day of Family Medicine clinic, I was scheduled to work with Dr. C, a senior resident. Before seeing my first patient, we talked about how things were done in clinic. We looked at the list of patients scheduled for the afternoon. We discussed the chief complaints that these patients had reported when making the appointment.

Dr. C asked me what rotations I had already been on. He asked me if I was familiar with different physical exam maneuvers. He graduated from a different school than I attend so he wasn’t too sure how much to expect of me.

While we were talking the medical assistant roomed a patient. I didn’t notice this. I didn’t even know what to look for. But Dr. C did. And as he wrapped up, he finished with, “Well the best way to find out where you are and how much you know is to just send you in. So go see the first patient.”

And that was that. I went to see the patient. I took a history and performed a physical exam. When I came out I told Dr. C what the chief complaint was and what my physical exam findings were. He asked me questions about the patient. I apologized for not thinking of asking for that information.

I’ve decided that the third year is full of these moments where I feel like I’m just thrown into the deep end of the pool. It is a state of almost constant unpreparedness. It was the same way when I started my Pediatrics rotation. I started on the Pediatric Pulmonary team. During our first full week the service was swamped with patients. They gave each student 5 patients to take care of.

Two weeks into Pediatrics I was sitting at lunch with 3 other classmates. Every single one of us felt overwhelmed. We each felt like we didn’t know what we were doing; it was like a mean prank where they throw you into a game without the instruction booklet.

But maybe it works. Maybe the constant feeling of not knowing quite enough is what pushes us through the fatigue and the strain to keep reading. Maybe we have to feel like we know nothing in order to push harder. Maybe this is one of those “refiner’s fire” types of situations that will mold is into competent physicians.

Sure. I can accept that. Why not?

Bring on the wolves.
 

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Random Thoughts at 6 AM

It’s 6 AM here. I feel like taking a shower. It would probably make me feel more awake. But the problem is that I don’t want to be awake. I want to be asleep.

I’ve been up since 1:30 AM. The plan is to keep studying for a few more hours and then go to sleep. I am bummed that I don’t get to wake up today and turn my clocks back one hour (Daylight Savings Time is today).

I need to be at the hospital by 5:30 PM today. As luck would have it, I’m scheduled for two days of “night float” just days before my shelf exam. So today and tomorrow I will be arriving at the hospital by 5:30 PM and staying until 7 AM.

No beds. No naps. Just hanging out on the Labor and Delivery unit in case something goes down.

I’ll be silently hoping for “quiet” nights. Because the nurses will pounce if I say something like “quiet” on the unit. It’s supposedly bad luck.

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So What Do You Wanna Do About It?

“Overnight, Mrs. Blake had 650 cc of emesis,” I reported to my senior resident.

“So what do you wanna do about it,” he asked me.

Unprepared for the question, I paused. I was expecting him to tell me what he wanted to do about it. I’m still trying to get used to this whole 3rd-year-medical-student-thing.

As I continue in my training, I have to transition from someone who collects data to someone who interprets data and comes up with a plan for what to do next. Anyone can collect data. But I’m going to be a doctor. At least that’s what my senior resident said to me.

Fine. I have to learn to do something about the data I collect. It’s tough, though. I don’t want to do something wrong. It’s comfortable to “just” collect data without having to do something with it.

I suppose it is fitting, then, that the last two years of medical school revolve around the question of “what is the next step in management?” This is in contrast to the emphasis in the first two years where the question that haunts medical students is “what is the diagnosis?”

Change is hard. But change, I must.

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Jumping Out Of Bed

I remember one occasion when I was sitting in on a patient visit. I was there just as an observer. The attending was giving his elderly patient instructions about a new medication he was about to receive. The conversation went something like this:

Doctor: Make sure you don’t jump out of bed. Go slow; take your time. Sit up, get your bearings, and then stand.

Patient: Don’t worry. I haven’t jumped out of bed since I was in my 20s. And that was because her husband came home!

 
I don’t know if he was being serious or if it was only a joke. But I liked that patient.

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Obamacare

I stopped by the grocery store tonight on the way home from clinic. I usually don’t take off my white coat until I get home. But I’m not about to wear my white coat and stethoscope around in the grocery store. So I got out of my car, took of the coat and scope, and tossed it back in the car.

Perhaps he didn’t see the white coat. But as I walked towards the door the man at the table yelled out to me, “Sir, petition to repeal Obamacare!.”

I walked over to see what it was all about. I’m not posting for or against the healthcare policies that were just put into place. What I am writing about is this guy’s reasons for the petition.

He summed it up this way (paraphrased):

What it comes down to is this: We weren’t allowed to vote on it. It was just shoved down our throats. They just shoved healthcare at us whether we want it or not.

 
I couldn’t help but smile. THAT is what it all comes down to?!? I looked at this obese man, likely a smoker, who would be old enough for medicare in 10-15 years. Clearly he hasn’t taken good care of himself. And he doesn’t want healthcare shoved down his throat? Who has to deal with all the chronic conditions due to his poor life choices and lack of preventive care when it all comes crashing down in his older years?

To be honest, I don’t know the details of the massive healthcare bill that was passed. And I probably disagree with many parts and agree with others.

But one thing it does push is preventive care at the primary care level. And I’m all for that.

Why are people against being given healthcare? I don’t get it.

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What’s your name? What’s your number?

Even as a medical student, one meets and interacts with enough patients that it is difficult to keep the details of their lives straight. But if there are two things that you should remember about each patient before seeing them, it is their name and their number. And by number, I don’t mean their digits.

Most patients are pretty reasonable about understanding that people in the hospital or clinic deal with so many patients that they don’t care if you forget the name of their dog or their third cousin’s limping poodle. They do, though, at least hope that you can remember their name when you walk into their room. After all, when entering a room, one often does have access to the patient’s chart. So putting in the little effort it takes to get the name correct is something everyone appreciates — even the little ones.

I remember one time when I was on my Pediatrics rotation. I was on the In-Patient portion of the rotation, which means I was seeing patients who were admitted to the hospital and were staying there for their treatment. As is the custom of many a medical student, my white coat pockets were filled with papers. One of them had the name and room number of the patient I was going in to see.

I glanced at the name and room number and started off to see the patient. I’ll call him Joey. Joey had been in the hospital for about half a week and I had seen him every morning at around 7 AM. This day, however, I was in a hurry. I needed to see him and do a quick check and then get over to a morning meeting. My mind was racing about the things I needed to do after my visit.

“Hey Chris,” I said as I walked in. Joey looked at me silently. There was no correction. Perhaps he didn’t have time to correct me. I quickly corrected myself and said “Joey.” But the damage had been done.

He wasn’t as happy as usual during my visit that morning. This was probably due to the fact that he was medically worse that day than the day before. But I can’t help but think that the fact that someone totally forgot his name played some part in him not even smiling during that visit.

I felt bad about my mistake. I don’t do much as a medical student. The most I could have done was to get my patient’s name right. All I needed to do was to look at my sheet as I was walking in the room. It probably won’t be the last time I slip up like this and say the wrong name. But now, because of Joey, I pause before entering a room to make sure I read the name correctly.

The second fact about a person that I think one should remember is their age. A 53 year old woman might be happy when you say that she is 43, but it does her no good for you to treat her as a 43 year old. The screening and prevention that a 53 year old needs is different than the screening and prevention a 43 year old would need. Knowing someone’s age is not just a nice thing to do, it helps in their care.

There was one time when I was doing a complete physical for a young man. As I got to his social history I asked him about his smoking, alcohol and drug use. He denied all three. Never smoked. Never did drugs. When I asked about alcohol he said no at first. But then admitted to having some alcohol a couple months ago. And it was at home, he added.

I was really confused. It seemed like there was some guilt in this admission. Most people I asked freely admitted to drinking multiple drinks on the weekend. I wondered if there was some sort of problem. After all, guilt about alcohol use is one of the things used to screen for alcohol abuse. I considered pressing the issue further to investigate the possibility.

Then I realized the guy was under 21 — the legal drinking age. He was slow to admit one drink a couple months ago because he shouldn’t have any legal means of obtaining alcohol in California. If I had remembered his age, I would have known that the guilt I perceived was not because he was having an alcohol abuse problem, but because he had just admitted to being a minor who had one drink. At home. A few months ago.

So the next time you enter a room, just sing to yourself, “What’s your name? What’s your number?” And it’ll all be easy from there — hopefully.